Goodbye...?

Let me reason out why 'GOODBYE' is my title today.Yeah!I'd be talking about Ms.Praning again.Goodbye kasi nagpapa alam siya na aalis [It could be out of the country or sa Bohol],na mag d-drop na siya sa school at lalayo. (kahit hindi niya sabihin,i know my problema uli sila)



Sobrang Praning talaga yon!She told me that she tried to kill her self last night.Kaso hindi nga lang natuluyan. Ganyan na ba talaga kalakas mang-impluwensiya ang true LOVE?Or is that really a TRUE LOVE then??...when you think negatively and put your self in danger?


How can we define true love?
is it when...
you are getting hurt many times but still you want to give a shot and try?
you know you are lying to yourself?
you trust him/her whatever he/she may say.That you don't care of your friends advices?


true love may have different idea.A life time to face and survive.

Impossible

I just realized how impossible the thing Im wishing for. Ok na din siguro na pinapakita niya na may halaga ako kahit papano sa kanya.

This was on her Friendster Account:

¤specifEc creteri0n im luking f0r a guy¤Im n0t luking f0r sumthing in particular lyk i c0uld oNly lyk dis kind or dat kind of guy. N0. If a guy has a dEcent j0b, having gud luks w0nt hurt, has balls dEn dats fine by me. I neD a man, n0t a b0y.

Lols.dunno know if what balls is she pertaining to. haha.I guess it could be ball as the main object in a basketball game.It could be player or has the passionate in that game.Ms Praning loves to watch basketball games, addicted to ATENEO team in the UAAP.She also encourage me to watch it and I did enjoyed. I think she doesn't know na I'm not playing basketball. After all, I doesn't intent to say.

Even nung time na kami pa,nanliliit na talag ako kay G. everytime na nababangit niya. He has a good look, ako? payat. Magaling magbasketball.Yun talagang maipagmamalaki.

How I wish ma-inlove sakin si Ms Praning.Damn it!I got jealos when I read how she describe G.It was so sweet and very proud.

IMU

Pauwi na ako kagabi.I was walking alone(dumaan pa kasi si francis sa netopia eh) 7:03, when I saw the time on my cellphone (expecting na magtetext siya.)Unfortunately,wala.:c

Kamusta na kaya siya? Naka apak kasi ng thumbtacks last night.Actually Im wondering if she accept her man again.Pero ayaw ko din at the same time.Baka mas lalo akong hindi maka kain.haha

Nakilala ko siya, crying and too depressed sa pagiging inlove(with that man again).Naging kame.Sa pag-aakala na we with be happy, kasi magaan yong nararamdaman sa isat-isa.I dont know if that was LOVE at all.Pero I know din, i love her over that small span of time na nagka-kilala kame and I think she does also. Unbelievable but we have only our relationship in just a week.After that, break na.Kasi naman, nalaman ko na yong lalaki nanliligaw daw sa kanya. Eh alam ko naman kung gaano niya yon kamahal eh. Natakot ako, pinag-isipan ko siya ng masama. Nag-away...Nag-explain...Break na.

Tanga ko no? Ako na nga pinili pero parang pinag-tabuyan siya. Sinabi niya na wala akong tiwala sakanya.

As I typing this new post, I was smilling. haha ."kasla ak bagtit!" Anyways the reason behind my smile (gemays) was her.

She called me up lately. haha. We just talked about UAAP again, and some destructors on her life.hehe.Hindi ko talaga alam magkwento.Natatameme ako minsan.

Ang sarap pakinggan yong boses niya. :)

Third Major Heartbreak

I really dont know how to win a woman's heart.Im just showing that she can count on me all the time.Im just here and ready to listen.I don't want her to stay alone on a battle. Hindi ko rin naman kaya na mang-sira ng ibang tao,para lang mapansin niya ako.Pero still my heart shouting na "kalimutan mu na siya,nandito lang ako sa tabi mo.Hinding hindi kita sasaktan". Again, hindi ko nanaman alam kung bakit hindi ko kayang sabihin.Maybe,Im still immature pagdating sa love. We tried before if may pupuntahan yung magandang pagsasama na yun,yung bonding na we both knew na magaan ang loob namin sa isat isa.Unfortunately, it doesn't work kasi bumalik yong long lost love niya. I just let her go. :c

It hurts.When times na I think we're getting okey, tapos magtetex siya, "jazz,nagtext na siya and she want me back again.What should I do? Mahal ko talaga siya." OUCH! hmmmmm.Let me take a big breath first. Kita mo? parang mag-best friend talaga no?Pinagpapa-alam pa.Kahit ayaw ko, pero siya iniisip ko eh, mas sasaya pa rin siya sa taong mahal niya.Kahit anong gawin ko,kung may nagmamay-ari pa rin ng puso niya diba?Wala din.

Ewan ko ba, parang napag-saklapan uli ako ng langit at lupa this morning, habang naaalala yong text ni Miss Praning.Nasa inbox ko pa nga ee.

Hindi naman ako inlove gaya ng mga past ko.Pero I know, Im happy chatting with her, exchanging text messages, and getting to know her more. Sa text lang ito pero she mean so special to me.

Well,we will just see then if no more cries this time [sa pag-accept uli niya]. Sana lang, hindi na siya tatawag o mag-tetext na umiiyak uli.

I would probably post here Miss Praning Picture soon.Watch out.