Tough Decision

They say being gay is a choice. And now, I'm in the time of balancing/thinking which way im going to take trough. Parang nasa harap ko na yung dalawang daan and yes im stock.

I envy gay people that has good relationship between their parents and relatives as well. There is acceptance and they lived happily of what they are. Na pinapadama parin nila na mahal sila, na accepted sila.

On the other and, I want my parents to be proud of me. Lagi nalang kasing disappoinments ang binibigay ko. Gusto k ding may maipakilala to them at maging masaya para sa akin. I have this girl in my mind na gusto ko. Pero I doubt if she has the same feeling, siguro noon pero hindi na ngayon.

Mabangis siya kung sa mabangis. Amazona type kumbaga. I don't know pero sa ganyan ako na-aatract. (rarely masyado)

As of now, hindi ko talaga alam. Sana may mga taong kahit hindi ko man hingin yung tulong nila eh makikita ko sa kanila kung saan ako magiging happy. Yung tutulong sila sa paghanap ng sarili ko. Ngayong tambay kasi ako, andami kong naiisip, andami kong narerealize. Siguro intended talaga to sakin. :) Hayy.jusko lord, help me decide things.